8.05.2019

A New Phase


So many of you have followed along with our cancer journey and I can not express to you how much it means to me to have so many people I only know online loving on us and lifting us up in prayer.  As you may recall we had our regularly scheduled three month scan in mid June but this time the results were quite different than the other scans and we immediately shifted gears. So many of you have either emailed me or messaged me on Instagram checking in and I have had to be vague, which I hate, to all of the details and the happenings over the last five weeks.  I can now share with you all of the news and what happens next for this new phase.


Our plan all along included my husband taking oral chemotherapy for a period of nine to twelve months and then once the chemo had shrunk the tumor to a more ideal size we would head to surgery.  At Christmas our oncologist felt he may take the chemo longer and so we mentally prepared for about 18 months or so to get the maximum results before surgery. Even three weeks before the scan our new oncologist had shared that we would push three more months even if the tumor had stopped shrinking just to make double sure the results would not change and the shrink would begin again.  We took it all in, made tentative plans and pushed on.

All of those plans changed on June 21 when the oncologist greeted us at our appointment and told us we were not scanning again, it was time for surgery.  I think the emotions, thoughts, and so many changes are the hardest for me as I am a planner.  You tell me the plan and I make my plans ready to stick to it.  When things change that are this big I feel so unnerved. This was quite possibly the hardest thing about that appointment for me. I kept thinking, but wait ... no. It was a shock for both of us, and most definitely for him as he is the one who has to do all the hard work. With my trip to Palm Beach just days away and the kids heading to camp I felt completely turned upside down.  We made the arrangements to see the surgeon, my husband worked out his work schedule (basically 24/7 up to surgery) and I sent the kids to camp and me to Palm Beach.

We met with our surgeon on July 3 and set the date for surgery for August 6, tomorrow! Without sharing details that really don't matter I can tell you that its a big surgery and we have all the feelings.  The kids started school on Thursday of last week, my oldest moved into a house after being home for six months (such a gift) and Lawyer has been working like crazy at work to prepare for some extended time off. Its been crazy ... and, yet, God has led the way every single day.  I can't believe that the month of preparation is coming to an end so very quickly ... as I type this it is Sunday morning and I still have a list of three things to do. I feel heavy at the same time I think I am ready.  I am ready for it to be Tuesday evening with my sweet better half to be healing and tumor free.  Our journey doesn't stop with surgery, but it does get us through phase two, which will bring so much peace to all of us.

One of the reasons I am sharing this news here is to tell you a little about what the blog will look like for the next month.  When we had to think about surgery the first thing I thought of when I had time was all the content that I had planned and was sponsored for this month.  It was a little overwhelming when I first thought about it, but as the month went on and with the help of the BEST assistant and MOST incredible photographer we got it all done.  The blog will be just like normal.  I will have posts for you six days of the week with new content I am super excited about.  Instagram will be the same.  All the posts are planned and it will be new to you every single morning at about 7 am.  What will be different will be stories and any live updates from me.  I can't promise you will see me at all during the first two weeks.  He has an extended stay in the hospital and my first and foremost commitment will always be to my family. I will do my best to let you know he is well and out of surgery safely, but like I said, I can not make any promises.  I know you completely understand.

We covet your prayers.  I have made all the plans and my parents arrive today and will be here until I bring him home.  The kids will be going and moving as usual, where they thrive the best, and I will be going back and forth to the hospital until we get to bring him home to recover.  I think I am most excited about bringing him home, tumor free.  My sights are set on that day.  I may fill the home with balloons and streamers, we shall see.

Also, thank you sooo much for praying for me last week.  When I could tell I was getting sick I completely panicked as I knew being sick would mean I would not be with him and I was in full freak out.  It turns out a small sinus infection + some super strong drugs will not beat me.  Thank you from me and my family to you for praying so hard.  Now you most likely understand why I kept saying I COULD NOT get sick.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for supporting me, for loving on us, and for continuing to pray for the complete healing and restoration for our beloved husband and father. 💗

18 comments:

  1. Hoping all goes well and he's home soon.

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    1. Your husband, YOU and your sweet family will all be in my prayers.

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  2. Praying the blood of Jesus over your husband and praying for a hedge of protection around you and your family, Paige. God is our Healer he is Sovereign and He is merciful. May the peace that passes all understanding be with you both tomorrow

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  3. Thinking of you all. Sending love and healing prayers. GOd will get you through this. Much love xxoo

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  4. Paige, there's only so much one woman can do - I get exhausted just reading about your life! Faith get us through life, and you have it in spades. Thank you for sharing your life. Prayers for you and your family. Right now.

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  5. Sending you and your husband prayers. God has you in his hands.

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  6. May God hold your family in his loving embrace.

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  7. Praying for y’all, God has Lawyer in the palm of His right hand! I can do all things thru Christ who gives me strength❤️��

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  8. I will pray for you and your family. Pray for healing, pray for the doctors and nurses who will be caring for your husband. Your faith will continue to get you through thisseason in your life.

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  9. Prayers pouring in from Texas, sweet lady...for complete healing, strength and peace beyond understanding.

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  10. God bless and speedy recovery from one lawyer to another!

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  11. Praying for your sweet family, Paige! Love from Charleston, SC!

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  12. Your husband has got this! Sending prayers that the surgeon has his most successful surgery and that he heals quickly and well. Allow people to take care of YOU! You can't take care of everyone and everything!

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  13. Paige,
    Am hoping that you and your family feel all the love, prayers and positive vibes that we are sending your way.

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  14. I am a follower but don't comment often. Just wanted to let you know there is one more offering up a prayer or two for you and your husband and family.

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