1.07.2020

Cheers To 50!


I think there is a part of me that is in shock that yesterday I celebrated my 50th birthday.  I was so ready to embrace 2020 and let last year go.  As much as it taught me it was the absolute hardest year of my life and some of it is still hanging around.  Its ok ... I am working through it all but knowing all the stuff happened last year and this year is a blank slate makes me feel so much better!



And then there is that number ... 50 ... all I can say is WOW.  I can remember being young and thinking being 50 was so very old.  What the heck was I even thinking, this is the best age I may have been, ever.  I think I will always feel like I am in my middle 30s but as we know as our children get older that seems silly, but it is truly how old I feel inside.  I love turning 40 and I think I can say the same about this new decade.  Age is just a number and truly has zero to do with how old I really am.  I hope I am as wise as I should be at this age, but we shall see. 😉


I wanted to share two things ... one is a letter to my younger self and the other is the amazing list of sweet attributes my daughter and her closest friends shared with me this weekend.  My love language is words of affirmation and they literally filled my love bucket to be completely overflowing.  I have no words for how incredible it was.  Those girls truly have a huge piece of my heart.

To the younger me ...

Oh sweet girl, you are so special and don't even realize it and may not for so many years.  You feel different than others and think you are the only one who has ever felt that way but I promise it is so not true. One day you will realize that God made you uniquely you and those special parts are the ones you should share and celebrate the most.  The love you have inside you and the desire you have at an early age to be a wife and mother will be the greatest adventures of your life.  These two things will really bring you more joy than anything else.  You love very deep and wide and this will both serve you well and be one of the hardest things you will deal with.  You are sensitive and empathetic and will be hurt many times, a lot of them with situations you let happen, but one day this will become clear and you will make strong choices.  When you are close to graduating from college you will meet two people that will become the most important friends and mates of your life.  Treasure them dearly, they are such great people and love you fiercely for just who you are.  Be willing to let life change around you and let it bless you.  Change is good even though it will be a really hard lesson for you to learn.  One day you will realize that God placed you exactly where you were supposed to be every single time to do the things you were supposed to do and experience the things that will change you and grow you most of all. It will also be hard for you to learn that fear and faith are not friends but enemies and to have fear is to turn from faith.  The moment you learn this lesson you will feel so free.  Be gentle with you, you are doing the best you can with what you know and when you know more you will do better, I promise.

Be brave, be you, be happy, be sad, be all the things to make you who you are.  You are special and unique just like everyone else and you are exactly who you were meant to be.  Live without regrets.  Apologize when you mess it up.  Be willing to look at yourself and see your flaws.  Embrace them.  Most of all ... just relax, you can't mess you up! 




And the list ... I still am blown away!!

so funny
fun to be around
buys us Chick Fil A
artistic
creative
smart
pretty
inquisitive
loving
good mom
looks good in pink
fun glasses
stylish
fun
compassionate
fashionable
nice
caring
loving
sweet
gentle
kind
happy
honest
strong
brave
passionate
mindful
determined
easy going
relaxed
peaceful
sympathetic
godly
ambitious
beautiful
good wife
fearless
good style
colorful
bright
forgiving
dependable

Can you even?  

Cheers to a new year, a new age and all the adventures that are ahead!!


4 comments:

  1. Happy Birthday.
    50 is just a number (I know so cliché--but true).
    Wishing you all the best for a wonderful year.

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  2. Happy Birthday. I recently turned 80 and 50 seemed like 2 weeks ago.Happy your husband is doing so well. Love your blog.
    Pat

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  3. Happy Birthday to a fellow Capricorn. Jordan's birthday was yesterday, too. And mine is tomorrow. Fifty was my best decade. I hope it is a good one for you, too.

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  4. Happy Birthday and welcome to the 50s - it's a great decade! Also - you had some really cute shoes on in your stories with this outfit - care to share?

    Happy 2020 as well - so happy your family is healthy and happy!!

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